Still Dreaming About The Stars

Some days I wish I was still 13...Like today...On this pic I was 13 about to be 14...Man! I still remember how much I cried that day!...I cried of happiness...I was finally receiving my 'stars'!...After an entire year eagerly waiting for that day...After an entire year of training...1st Aids course...Drills!....After all the blood and tears...I was finally receiving my wonderful 'stars'!...

With those stars on my shoulders I could finally help people for real!....I could ride the ambulances as my colleagues could do...I could help them out during Summer time to put out fires!...Man! I was so proud of those stars...so proud of that uniform....And my Dad! Gosh!There were stars in his eyes too!...

I wish I was 13 again....I wish all my worries were still the same I had back then...

And those were not the only stars I dreamed about...The Star Spangled Banner was already a goal to achieve...And so many times I wished upon a shooting star to help me out fulfill my dream...

20 years later...And I'm still crying over those stars...It's so hard when you put all your heart into something and everyone seems to commend you for the good job you're doing and all you get is a tap on your shoulder and not the stars over what you've cried and bled for...

I cried today...It's a fact...And this time weren't tears of happiness... And my Dad ain't here no more to wipe them out for me...Now He has his own place among the stars and is watching over me...So I fell...But I'm up again...I shall continue walking...with a steady walk..Maybe even stronger...

Still dreaming about the stars....Still wanting to reach them...

Like they say...What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.

And for the sake of my 3 lil'stars brought to this world I'm still holding on to that dream...I know that one day...maybe sooner than I expect my lucky star will shine again...

Autumn Thoughts!....

Autumn generally is not an easy time of the year for me...The days go shorter and I hardly have opportunity to see any daylight...I'm not very fond of the cold weather either...And my mood gets as gray as the sky above me... And then comes that homesick feeling...The reddish trees...The smell of fresh made peanut butter cookies...*big sigh*....
I still love my job that's a fact but I feel now that I want a bit more than this..
Either I get a promotion asap or I got to start chasing my dream job again!....
And for the first time in my life I got criticized cause "apparently" I'm too thin now!....Yup...That's true...My MIL today asked me what is wrong with me cause I'm too skinny now!...Well 1 year ago they were asking hubby what he was doin' to me cause I was going rounder by the day!...What a f**** is wrong with everyone?? I feel good about myself (I mean kind of!) so stop bugging me!Gee....
Ain't people ever satisfied?...Is there always a lil'something for us to complaint about?...
I guess that is human nature...right?...But I'd appreciate if some people could keep it to
themselves...

Long time since my last post

Yup....Definitely there's been quite some time since my last post.

As I told ya before I got a job last year and as you can imagine time is something that I'm still learning how to handle.Obviously some of the things I used to do before on a daily basis (such as blogging!) had to be left behind!Not very fond of that idea thou!LOL!But a lady gotta do what a lady gotta do right?!

Anyway, it's been almost an year since I started working and I still love to do what do (thou I got bigger plans for me!). The kids are doing great in all aspects and that makes me very happy.

Filipe is 13 years old now...Wilson is about to turn 11 next month...And Eric is 4 1/2 ....

It's a joy to see them grow strong and healthy but I miss the days they were little!...

Oh well...

Hope everything is running smoothly for ya as it is for me.

And like I said to a dear friend of mine: «If life gives ya lemons, make a lemonade!...And add some vodka!!!»

Placing all my bets!....

As some of you girls already know, I've made up my mind about change my life this year.I'm very stubborn and I've decided that this year will be one of the best years of my life!

I think I started pretty well by getting a tattoo done on my B'day right?!LOL!Well, that ain't all...2 weeks ago I went for a job interview...For my dream career!...Being a flight attendant!

It all went very well I should say....Thou my first thought when I got there was to turn around and walk away when I say over 50 people there applying for the same position (both genders) being 85% of them girls much younger, prettier and better groomed than me!...

Anyway...I decided to stick around and go for it no matter what!...

Turned out to be very positive for me!I actually found out that I really had a good chance of getting it!

By the end of that all I was the one who turned it out!

Thou I'm in 100% ok for all the requirements (age, education, skills , etc) it required me to move to Qatar...So...Thou I really want to become a flight attendant I had to say "No thanks!"...

Any hoo...I gave the 1st step towards it...Praying for new opps to come on over now!LOL!

Keep your fingers crossed for me girls!

B'day Present!

Yesterday I turned 33 and had a great day!

I took the day off cause I wanted this day to be memorable!

Me and hubby spent the day all by ourselves went out for lunch, had a coffee at Starbucks and guess what I've offered myself??

I got a tattoo!

I've been wanting to do one for such a long time but was a bit scared.It turned out to be as easy as going to the hairdresser.Actually, last time I went to do my nails it was so painful that I felt like hitting the lady who was doing the stupid manicure!So this was piece of cake!

I gotta tribal butterfly surrounded by 3 little stars!Butterfly representing me and obviously the stars representing my 3 gorgeous baby boys!

My Crew!

Here are some pics of my crew at work.

Seasons Greetings everyone!!!!

Update on my life news

Well, actually there isn't much to say!LOL!I'm still busy as a busy bee!

And I'm still in love with my job!LOL!

It's a very funny experience and I have a great team.I was the employee of the month for September and I have some responsibilities in my hands but I like it!

The kids are doing great and all excited about Xmas.I still haven't set up my Xmas tree thou!

I'm slimmer!!! Lost 5 kg in the last 4 weeks! So now I'm wearing jeans size 10!4 weeks ago I was a size 14!The ideal would be a size 8 thou! But I feel great already!

I miss my blogging friends a lot!

But...What can I do?....I'm always so tired that I hardly have time to do anything else.

Oh well....

Just hope everyone is doing great as well.

I'll keep in touch as regularly as possible!

Why I miss being pregnant...

Here are a couple of very good reasons ! :)

Crappy Day.....

Definitively this is a crappy day for me...
First I had to skip work cause the buses workers were on strike (therefor I'll loose my assiduity bonus) ...Filipe is not feeling that good...Eric is coughing a lot...And my husband just called me to say that my MIL's friend asked him:«What are you doing to your wife cause she looks so fat and round now?» (Just keep in mind that this came from a person that is not able to see her own toes!!!)
Husband's reply:«Nothing.Just treat her good and provide her with everything that she needs.»WRONG answer!He should have said somethin' like:«Well she's three times smaller than you» or«I think you need a new pair of glasses»!!!
Bottom line...He sort of agreed wit her!!!
So I feel like a piece of s*** now...
And guess what do I do when I'm stressed??Right!Eat even more...
Can I just disappear into an hole??...

My new "ME"

Before

After (I mean..Now!LOL!)

I got a new hair do for my mom's wedding.Now it's much shorter and it's curly!
On the following day nobody recognized me at my work!It was so funny!
My husband loved it as well thou he felt a bit sad I cut it so much (just to remember you girls that it was down to my butt!LOL)

Messy, Messy Sandra!...

I refuse myself to believe that Summer is coming to an end now!...We're getting to that time in the year that drives me nuts!...Soon enough Fall will be here and along with it the scenarios, sounds and smells that make my heart skip a beat...The reddish leaves on the trees....The cold and rainy weather...Thanks Giving and Trick or Treat...And on my mind 1 000 000 thoughts running wild...«Why am I still here?»... «When will my kids celebrate their 1st Thanks Giving?»...«Will next year be better then this?»...
And along with these "homesick" thoughts, a whole bunch of hidden tears...
I wanna get pregnant but I know that can't do it now...I love my job but on the other hand I miss being at home with my kids ...I gotta a new buddy,but I miss my blogging girlfriends dearly...Toni's baby is here and the gift I was supposed to send months ago is still laying on the phone desk waiting to be posted to the US...I lost track of what is happening in everyone's life...
*Big sigh*....
It seems that I'm on a spiral...Better than that!I look like a dog chasing it's own tail!I set a goal in life, it's laying there in front of me, I chase it like crazy and the more I try to grab it further it seems to be!!!

Running like a horse!...

Lately I've been running like a horse!...Running to get to my work...Running back to get to my house...Running to pick up the kids...Running to get the dinner started...Running ...Running...Running!!!!....
And during the past two weeks, running to get some nice clothes for my mother's wedding that will happen next Saturday!....Arghhhhhh!....Yeah!...You heard me right!...My mother is getting married next Saturday (with my step father) thou they're together for 17 years now...So...The girl who's carrying the wedding rings will be wearing a pink dress and Wilson will have to match her!... The thing is, I've been so busy that I only started to worry about it short while ago and now I can't find pink shirts at all!!!!
Therefor I'm stressed!...Not to mention that I look a whale in my dress!....
*Big sigh*......
Hey Eric!Can mommy lay there with you!?!?!?.....

USA vs Brazil

The soccer match USA vs Brazil ended 10 minutes ago...
I'm so, but so very sad that I feel like crying...I can not believe that after having the advantage by 2 goals on the first half of the match the USA team just handed it to the Brazilians in a silver plate...I'm so furious!...Anyhow...The American team has proofed to the world that they have great players...And they should have win the Confederations Cup...
I really hope they win the World Cup next year in South Africa...
God bless the US Team!...God Bless America!...

An absent Friend!...

I know that lately I've been an absent friend and I want to apologize for that girls!...
I miss you all and I miss blogging and taking pictures!...
But as much as I try time is never enough!...
When I get home I'm usually so tired that I don't feel like doing anything but laying on the couch!..
And if I'm not that tired there's always sooooooooooooooo much to do around the house that when I'm done with it it's time to go to bed!...*big sigh*!....
But I want you girls to know that despite my absence I always, and I mean ALWAYS think of you...You know that most of my colleagues are foreign...Canada,US,UK and India...
So I'm always saying stuff like:«Oh really?Well, my friend in Tennessee said that *whatever*...» or «Yeah my Canadian friend thinks the same way than you!...» or «Is that near to Wolverhampton? I have a good friend that lives there!» or «You're daughter's dress is so cute!It would look great on Tisha's baby!...»
I really miss you my dear friends...
Oh well, today it's a bank holiday in the UK so I had this day off as well...But I spent 80% of this day running my errands ...
So...Hope you girls have a great week and don't you forget about me, k???LOL!

Wordless Wednesday--27th Edition

---The chubby little blond---

Happily Exhausted!

So...Shell I start with the good news or the bad news!?LOL!
Maybe I should start with what went wrong first!...
Yesterday afternoon, after Eric take his nap, he woke up burning in fever...I guess my lil'rugrat subconsciously knew that he would be with out his momma for an whole day and his little body responded to it...I don't know!....So, yesterday I spent 90% of the day trying to organize everything for today...Finally, I went to bed around 00h30...Eric had fever all night long so he kept turning and tossing in bed...Around 2am he vomited... So I got up from bed and cleaned him and everything else up...He only fell asleep again (which means that I fell asleep again too!) around 5h30am...6h30 I was up!Getting dressed and ready for my 1st day at work!...I got the kids up around 7am...7h35am I was knocking at my MIL's door to leave the kids...Eric grabbed my hand and refused to let it go so I had to just kinda push him away(my heart was broken to do that!...) cause now I was late to catch the bus which was leaving at 7h46!...So I looked at my watch and thought «Oh s****!!!Now I've got to run!» So I ran!When I got to the bus stop the bus was just about to leave!The driver hit the brakes so I could get in!LOL!As I was entering I stumbled on the step and fell on my knees cause my hands were occupied holding my bags!Everybody laughed!....Geeez!....
But that was it....After that everything went smoothly!...I loved the crew who's providing us the training.They are all very friendly.My working group is quite good too.We have people from all over the world:US, Canada,Finland,Brazil,Goa,UK!....A nice mangle!LOL!
I got home a bit earlier than I was expecting once it was our 1st day there.My whole body is aching!...But I feel very happy!...
The only thing bothering me right now is the fact that Eric is still feverish!...
Hope he gets better ASAP...

Latest News Upon My Crib

I've been quite absent lately but as you know I've been looking for a job cause life was demanding ASAP!...
And you all hotmommas know how demanding it is to take care of our children 24/7, plus the house...The dog...The birdie....LOL!
Well...Finally, last week I was called for an interview!...In fact, that same call was the 1st part of my interview:testing my English Skills! And I did fine!So they scheduled me for the second interview live on scene!LOL!And I did good again!Last Friday I went through the 3rd part of it:a little chat on the phone with the company's chairman (in this case a chairwoman!LOL) who's British!And I did good again!
So today the manager called me to say that they did like me and so I was hired!YAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
How great is that????I'm so excited!!!
First cause I loved the working environment, I have the chance to work speaking in English and the salary ain't that bad compared to my previous job!
That's due to the fact that the company is NOT PORTUGUESE!And when I settle I got the chance to achieve one of my biggest dreams in life!Move overseas!Yeah you heard me!Their company is spread worldwide so I can work for them any where!!!
I'm still head over hills about it and I'm all stressed up trying to figure out everything at the same time cause I've been home for the past 3 years and I'm kinda stuck on the "mommy gear"!
Anyhoo!...
Another big achievement around here was made by Eric:he's fully potty trained at last!No more diapers for him!!!For the past 2 nights he has been sleeping with out it and did not wet the bed!Ain't he the sweetest thing ever!?Yay for the both of us!
So I hope you all lovely girls, keep your fingers crossed for me!

I'm only human!

I just "exchanged" a few words with one of my Portuguese girl friends and all I feel like is crying...No she wasn't not rude or anything but...I feel like crying my guts out!...
Last time I saw her was almost 1 year ago...And she only lives 3.72 miles away from me!...I know she has a nearly 3 y.o. baby girl and she's going through divorce and that she's working and so...But a WHOLE year went by...So I said to her «Last time we saw each other was almost 1 year ago...» and she said «You have no idea how my life is right now» I replied «I can imagine» and she said «No you can't...»
That was such a stroke for me...My 1st thought was "Well if you just called me or came to me I WOULD know what's going on!!!!!"
I have a whole bunch of things going on in my mind and in my life too!And thou I'm blessed with a good handful of wonderful friends I've made through the blogging world I need HUMAN TOUCH!!!
I need to talk to grown up people from the same gender and about the same age then me!....People who understand me!I'm only human for the crying out loud!...

Some New Pics...

We've took this pics yesterday!Don't we look lovely??Bwahahahahahahahahah!

Remember this?--"The Heights - How Do You Talk To An Angel"

The Heights - How Do You Talk To An Angel

This was one of my fav Tv Shows when I was a teen (this and Beverly Hills 90210 and a few more!).And I loved these guys songs!