Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Messy, Messy Sandra!...

I refuse myself to believe that Summer is coming to an end now!...We're getting to that time in the year that drives me nuts!...Soon enough Fall will be here and along with it the scenarios, sounds and smells that make my heart skip a beat...The reddish leaves on the trees....The cold and rainy weather...Thanks Giving and Trick or Treat...And on my mind 1 000 000 thoughts running wild...«Why am I still here?»... «When will my kids celebrate their 1st Thanks Giving?»...«Will next year be better then this?»...
And along with these "homesick" thoughts, a whole bunch of hidden tears...
I wanna get pregnant but I know that can't do it now...I love my job but on the other hand I miss being at home with my kids ...I gotta a new buddy,but I miss my blogging girlfriends dearly...Toni's baby is here and the gift I was supposed to send months ago is still laying on the phone desk waiting to be posted to the US...I lost track of what is happening in everyone's life...
*Big sigh*....
It seems that I'm on a spiral...Better than that!I look like a dog chasing it's own tail!I set a goal in life, it's laying there in front of me, I chase it like crazy and the more I try to grab it further it seems to be!!!

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